Sometimes I wish things never happened. I wish I never graduated. I'm not prepared for college, I'm not ready to leave my friends behind, and I'm not ready to see my friends leave me as they go and make new lives without me. Sure, everyone says "Keep in touch" but it seems as though everyone says it just because it's something you say when you say goodbye and that no one ever really thinks of the meaning of it. I don't know if if I'm making any sense, but who cares.

Brenda is leaving in a few hours, and i'm stuck at home, while everyone is at shaylynn's house. It sucks how a person who's had a big impact on your life is leaving, for who knows how long. Work and stupid curfews. I somehow blame my parents for his. They have such a chokehold on my life, it sucks.

Senior summer, and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing.